everything you have mentioned is a sign of depression. Sometimes when I'm depressed, I just feel like I'm a lazy loser and nothing is wrong with me other than that. It's a self-esteem thing that goes along with being depressed.

I know what you mean about it being embarrassing. Sometimes I feel so disgusting about myself, yet still can't get up and shower. It's ridiculous.

I hope you begin to feel better soon. Whether you're depressed or dealing with something else. (((HUGS)))