No don't say that you are NOT a horrible person. You are just going through a hard time in your life. You will get better soon just have to keep pushing forward beautiful. I have faith in you. I'm kind of a hypocrite bc I think the same of myself but what I've learned from others is that we have to RECOGNIZE that this is not really US talking this is that stupid DEPRESSION! YOU ARE GREAT! i dont even know you but girl you're wonderful!