Okay, so I don't talk about my issues with my friends. I have one friend who I told I have bipolar disorder. That is all though. I started seeing a new pdoc, and she asked if I liked her or not, and I said yeah, just that she was really intense. I told my friend I have issues besides just mood problems, but didn't get into what these other problems are.

And then I was an idiot and told my friend that my new pdoc changed my diagnosis from bipolar 1 to schizoaffective disorder bipolar type and that it's kind of like a mix of schizophrenia and bipolar.

And now my friend is scared of me!

Ugh. Why did I have to tell her that?!

I feel like no one understands. People are not educated about this stuff. I hate the stigma. And the way it is portrayed in movies and the media doesn't help.

I am not scary. I do not want to hurt anyone. I am harmless. I even let spiders go. I'm terrified of moths and butterflies, and there was once a moth in our apartment and, despite my moth terror, I saved the disgusting thing and put it outside! I'm a vegan. I don't even eat animals!

I just wish people were more educated about mental illness!