It's a very big and brave step to acknowledge past abuse and look at it for what it is: abuse. Go easy on yourself, it can be a very tough and anxiety-inducing leap, but it's also important. Accepting abuse as 'normal' only justifies abuse, even when you are justifying abuse against yourself. You are a person, and so justifying abuse against yourself, is still justifying abuse. This is part of why it's so important and courageous for survivors to acknowledge that they were abused and that it was unacceptable behavior from their perpetrators. You deserve to feel proud for taking a stand.