Yeah they ask, but only when I am super bad. I straight out said today exactly what I needed to a number of close friends. None could help today, the next time anyone can see me is friday. I really needed help today. I ended up SH which I havent done in a while and passed out from the relief I felt. I started crying when I woke up again. I was so sad I woke up. I wish this was hormonal but there is no way it could be.

I guess I take zyprexa again tonight, I am not passed the bad as I thought I was.