Hi PolarBunny,

Welcome to PC!!!
I'm sorry you're struggling
You say you have everything most people wish for in their lives.........but have you got what you wish for.........sometimes you can wish for/need more than/different things from the things that make other/most people happy..........and that can be OK, in fact that can be good if you aim more for them (depending on what those different things are of course!!).
Or another angle.........you can have everything you could dream of/the "perfect" life for you.........but that doesn't stop depression stepping onto the scene/taking over.
But you're taking a great first step in talking about it, and thankyou for sharing with us.
As you probably know anyway it can be incredibly hard to shake/move away from those feelings but reaching out for support can sometimes help a bit.
And on here.........well there's some great people who can offer you understanding and support.........and ideas of different things that have helped them or/and may help you a bit.
So again..........welcome!!
And if you want to talk a bit more about what's going on for you..............



Alison