I know I need to be more patient with the Latuda as I just started it Wednesday night but I just get so tired of the constant med adjustments. I still am so agitated and restless with very little concentration. Not to mention the hopelessness that's coming with not finding medications the consistently work for more than 6 months if that.

I beginning to feel like I'm just plain crazy. I know that can be a charged word in the mental health world but it's the only word that comes to mind. So, no offense to you all but that is how I feel. I just can't get a grip...I keep slipping and sliding into depression or shooting off into mania. It really is making me mad. All this is extremely uncomfortable and maddening.

I'm sorry just really frustrated. Didn't get to take my morning tegretol because mom was supposed to pick it up yesterday but there was a question so she didn't get it and has to pick it up today sometime. UGH! I wish so badly I could do without the meds but I would crash into a deep depression for sure...NO doubt. I don't know just pure frustration to add to the agitation and restlessness...not a good combo.

God help me! I might just go off my rocker. I can't take this bipolar ********. It's just plain stupid that it puts my life on hold so much until I can get my moods reasonably stabilized. Blah!