For about 7 months now, I've been patiently waiting for a windfall of sorts to come in to me. According to the attorney I spoke with in December, I was to expect to receive 1/3 of the money in July and the balance in November.

So, stupid me of course plans her life around this. Most of which was going to be an extended trip to Romania to be with my husband for a few months, and hopefully attend his interview at the Embassy and get his visa to come to the States. I had it all figured out.....my daughter and grandson would stay in my apartment while I'm away, I would pay the rent, she would pay the other bills. All my other bills would be taken care of before I left. I would have been able to support both my husband and I very nicely and he could have quit his 80 hour a week job so that we could spend some quality time together and make up for some of the time we haven't been able to connect.

Now, this morning, I was told I won't see it until November by this same attorney and I am so livid and disappointed and ticked off and sad and and and I could just spit nails right now

I am able to get a little bit of money, but just barely enough to catch up on a few things and make a 3-4 week visit to Romania instead of a couple of months. I can't support us both on what I will get this month so he can't quit that damned crappy job of his while I'm there. That means I get to sit in his apartment for 16 hours a day alone while he's working and cherish the few hours a week we will have together. Maybe he'll get Sunday's off....I can only hope and pray.

I don't know why it is, but every time we make a plan to be together, something always screws it up. It's not as if we are doing anything wrong for crying out loud. We are very much in love, we appreciate each other, we love being together and talking about anything and everything. We connnect on so many different levels...I mean what in the world is happening and WHY?????

This just isn't fair...and before you say it, yes I know that life isn't fair, but we've been working on this for 3 1/2 years now. How much longer will we have to suffer before we can spend our lives together in relative obscurity and peace?

*SIGH* I'm just going to go to bed and cry myself to sleep I guess.....there is nothing more I can do at this point.