It's so hard to read this feedback because it says everything I don't want to admit or even say outloud (I'm very grateful, even though it's difficult)

Last night I came upstairs after working and my husband decided to stay home with me, which I thought was a really positive sign and made me feel better (at least temporarily). But the truth of the matter is that he still doesn't get it, and isn't trying to get it. He is a good person, like I said, and he always tries to "do the right thing", which is why he stayed home with me, but I'm not hopeful it's a sign of any deepening understanding...

I'm afraid to confront him because I'm afraid of rocking the boat. We met when I was in a high, got married a week later, and-even though I warned him of the bp stuff day 1-I still feel like I trapped him and now have to push down all the bad stuff as much as possible. I want so badly to be the person I was last year, but it's a fantasy. This is not a real marriage, and that's the part the hurts the most.