Compare numbers to others and you see how behind i am. How worthless compare to others. You dont understand how much developed they are because of all those experiences. I am kid, they are adult. And they can always say they won compare to me, because they experienced all more. Therefor i dont see a way out. No thing can give me this equality anymore. I am to far behind, they all made something out of themself. I didnt.


Next week my favourite musician is in my town and the only one which is giving me a little will to live, but i cant go, because i cant be in shorts, because i want others to see my skinny legs. Also i could go on trips with some online friend, but cant go, because its useless, when others had tons of this before and regular sex.