Hi NobodysHome. Welcome to Psych Central (PC). I am so sorry for all the grief you feel and family situations you must confront. Your siblings are dealing with the same grief but acting it out in different ways that are pressuring and straining the family.
It is amazing how you managed to graduate with all the trauma around you. Congratulations. I know that self harm is something that can creep up when you are feeling vulnerable but I hope you are strong enough not to give in. There are other ways of coping.
There is an article in Psych Central that talks about self injury and how to cope with it. Here is link:
Self-Harm: The Myths & the Facts | Embracing Balance
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