I'm having a hard time today. Living in the US, separated from my wife and children in England for 2 years and am starting to fall apart. I have to live in a place where I have to work full time for just room and board. A farm in Hawaii, which, though nice, is not so good when you have to sleep in a small tent and there is little shelter from the heat.

The only place to go is the main house. I can't eat when I need to as it is vegetarian and I am not. I also have phobias about being around too many people so I can't make anything to eat with all these people around me. Kids screaming and running around everywhere.
I have managed on my own for 2 years now but am isolated in a rural area with no transport and can't go anywhere. Some days are better than others but occasionally I fall into despair about being away from my family and home in England. I feel threatened all the time, never having any privacy and being forced to leave because I have no income and have stayed too long and don't fit in because of the mental health issues this is causing.
If I had an income and a place to live where I was comfortable and didn't feel threatened all the time and my family was with me and I could choose when and what to eat (just a normal, stable life), I would be able to heal. I am completely exhausted after 2 years and can't rest or do anything about it. I am stuck here and can't get back to England. My family is suffering from poverty in England and our only hope is for me to make this work somehow completely on my own. The US Embassy in London told me I had to come back by myself and my family had to stay in England. I am only trying to save my family.

These feelings are worse in the afternoon for some reason, and start tapering off in the evening.