Hi Gostryter,
The T you went to see sounds like she didnt have a clue or any real sense of what your experiences were like, as if a pamph on assertiveness would fix it.
From what you've said, its not, just something thats going to be fixed so easily.
Going by my own experiences, I think that, - as she minimised your situation, that is so crazymaking, then you know something has been denied that is important, so you need to get it out, but you had the trust to tell the T, but then she acted like its nothing, so, to get at those feelings you need to make them physical,
- I sort of do something simlar and that's how I'd describe it for me. If you would like to talk more about it, I have some experinces on abstinence because I have been in addiction recovery.
I was very intersested in what you said about this pinksoil too. I think I relate.

warm regards,
River.