Well Zero sleep last night. I am getting all kinds of angry over my entire pathetic situation so about 520am I decided it was time for a walk.. Off Sirius(my dog) and I go.. I live in the middle of no where so its cool walking around alone , Coyotes typically wont mess with anyone. So I pretty much light jogged 5 miles and I would have gone longer but my dog was getting tired LOL .. yes my pain was sucking before and yes its suvking even more now , but i am just at the point that I really truely do not give a shyt anymore.. Maybe I will just collapse or keep not sleeping and drift off into psychosis, whatever... Bleh .

Everyone take care of yourselves ! gentle hugs