That sounds like a very claustrophobic way to be live. Maybe you could stay at home on a daily basis if the cleaning people just clean up your room without touching the house. Do the cleaning company offer some type of psychological support?

Could you suggest to your b/f that he hasn't found the time to help you and that you understand but you need help with one room. If the cleaners can do it in one day - even if just takes them a couple of hours to do one room - then you will have some room. Do the cleaning company have any suggestions for a agency to help you move?

Being able to use your computer would be one enormous pay off. One lil step at a time Maven. You can do this.

Just wondering if it was time to bite the bullet and move out to a new place? Start fresh so to speak. Something is going to give and I hope it isn't you.

Sending hugs to a safe/clean place for you.