I wonder if it takes years to change? My T said I had some borderline traits but they were offset by my positive character qualities. He said he wouldn't stand up in court and say I had borderline disorder. I wanted to jump out a window at the idea I had BPD
But I wonder if it's because I've had children and I feel connected to them in a way I never did with anyone else? Or if it's because of stuff that happened to me that severed my ability to feel connected to my parents and relatives ? Or I chose not to to prevent further hurt?
I have no idea what it's like to have the disorder or how confusing it would be?