Hello all.

I went to my t recently to talk about my anxiety. We were talking about it, and she asks me what I worry about. Of course I worry about all kinds of crazy things, such as someone taking my dog while I am walking him, or someone murdering me in my sleep, but usually my mind is blank. I don't hear the "voice in your head" talking all the time, only when I want it to. Mostly it feels like I am carrying a huge sack of worry on my back that dosent go away. It's like it interferes with my life without being a direct fear? Does that make sense to anyone? It's like thoughts are popping up in my mind, but if you ignore them you don't think about them but they physical symptoms and emotion are still there? Well back to the point, I told her I do have direct fears often, but mostly it feels like a cloud or weight of anxiety following me around. She then continued to tell me that it sounds like someone out of a comercial or tv show. We then moved on. Should I bring this up again? Did I make the wrong choice in therapists?

Also just random secondary question. I have been sedated twice before, and everytime I hallucinate. Both times it was with versed. Will this be a good indication of how benzos will effect me? I was prescribed xanax as needed but I am too scared to take it for that reason and withdrawal. I read online you can have withdrawn after one dose? I was also reading online that sometimes people take more than they meant to because they black out and end up taking a bunch?