I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling like things are slipping back.

One of the things that I have found really helps me is to realize that it's not about the food, and it's not about what you weigh. There is some other emotion hiding behind the food and weight stuff. It's been useful for me to keep asking myself, "what am I really feeling?" Although I will admit, sometimes it's pretty painful, too. So be ready for all kinds of emotions to come out...they've been hiding inside for a long time. But I have found that once those emotions see the light of day, the ED behavior becomes less compelling.

I read what you said about what had triggered this behavior showing up again. And I wonder if maybe finding out you were right about that one thing has given power to some of the distorted thoughts that the ED produces. Like, "I was right about that thing, so maybe I really *am* fat." I don't know...that's just a guess. You didn't say what it was you had been proven right about. But if it is something traumatic, then it's also possible that just knowing that it is true has triggered the ED as a way of coping with the trauma.

*hugs*
mj