I like being in control. To me 'confidence' is some alien concept, and I cannot understand. I only feel confident when I'm 100% sure of myself or something happening, but I know that's not possible in most cases. Other people seem to be confident even if they're entirely not in control.

I'm always anxious, am I looking presentable enough? Am I making people feel uncomfortable? Will I succeed if I put all my effort into something or should I just not try because there's always the chance of failure and I hate failing?