For the past 3 months I have been having problems with eating. I get urges for certain foods and when I eat them I feel horrible about myself. But it is now happening that I feel guilty about eating anything. Half the time I eat anything I vomit because I am afraid of gaining weight. Vomiting has gotten very hard for me to do. It is not as easy as it use to be.

I have now been begun using laxatives as a way of making me feel like my stomach is empty and that I won't gain weight when using them. When I do use them I weigh myself and can see that I have lost a little weight and it makes me feel good about myself.

I have been diagnosed being bi-polar with depression. I think I might be eating because I am depressed and it makes me feel better but after I feel horrible so what's the point of eating in the first place? Before I was put on Risperidone. I was happy with my weight. Being on the meds my weight went up quite a bit and I stopped taking it because I couldn't stand looking at myself getting fat.

Someone please help me.