first off, really happy that you are no longer being tormented. congrats! secondly, its hard to gauge whether to process what happened or not. for some, talking about it does open old wounds and pain but it's supposed to ease off and you wind up feeling better afterwards. not to say though that it isnt a painful and long process. on the other side, some people dont need to talk about it and life goes on and things get better with time. i guess for me what i evaluate is if these past experiences are affecting me, even subconsciously, in the present. with that i also say that i am proud of you for trying therapy again. it is a huge thing for someone that has been traumatized by a therapist. its very, very brave. so that is great