Thanks purplemoon, pinksoil, and almedafan. It's good to hear about reflecting on therapy in therapy from you all. And that it doesn't necessarily mean I want to end therapy. Because I've been wondering. I had this huge goal in my life that I have worked on for almost 2 years now, and I reached it. And now what? I just had not visualized the phase I am in now at all. We started to talk about that in therapy yesterday. T had me look even farther ahead in the future and visualize that and then start to look back to now and visualize how what I do now will get me to then. But we didn't get far...
I am actually curious in another way to discuss my past therapy with T. Because I wonder how much he remembers and it seems that what he does remember will in some way be what was memorable/significant to him. I am really curious now what he will remember! (I don't believe he keeps notes on my sessions so it will just be what is in his brain.)
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almeda24fan said:
Aw, your first meal
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I know, it was so significant, lol. I was thrilled by it. It is one more thing we have shared.
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pinksoil said:
However, once we do reach a certain level of self-awareness and understanding, we are able to take a step back and see how we have gotten to where we are.... and be so appreciative of the T who has helped us to get there. So no, I don't think it is indicative of you wanting to end therapy. I just think you may have reached a milestone-type thingy in therapy, where you are able to step outside of your treatment and look at where you've gotten.
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I think I am there. WOW!!!
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As for the meds? Well, you weren't ready to tell him. That's ok. You'll be ready soon.
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I really like how you put that, pinksoil. I think that is true. On the meds topic, I am the person who is always so proud that I didn't take anti-depressants to fight my depression. It has been like a badge of honor for me. I beat depression with psychotherapy alone. So it makes me seem like a complete hypocrit to myself to now be taking an anti-anxiety med. But it just got to be too much for me, very painful and anxious time (divorce), with lots of negative emotions zinging around our house. I just needed something to help me get through this time. So I went over "to the dark side" lol and got a prescription from my GP. (What' s ironic is that the med I got does not help at all with anxiety but has these other effects I really like.)
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Actually, I'm surprised he isn't involved in the decision or at least knows about it. He has never asked you that? Although, I'm not sure if you went to see him initially for a problem that required medication.
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almedafan, IMO, many conditions/problems for which people take psychotropic meds do not "require" meds. But that is just my own personal bent. Ever since my previous T, who was strongly against meds, I have felt that meds are
my decision and not a topic I want to discuss in therapy. I need to decide myself whether to seek meds, not because a T is for or against them. It is just such a charged topic and no one is free of bias, so I prefer to make up my own mind without consulting therapists. Now that I'm actually taking a med, however, I would consider telling my T, as what's done is done. The slippery slope, etc. (I did tell my T ages ago that my husband takes anti-depressants, and I was pleased with his neutral response.)