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Old Oct 05, 2004, 08:19 AM
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You are correct i am using wrenches as hammers. ...
If you look back at my question first off i didnt ask if there was someone around who could judge me. I asked if there was serious health risks and i got my answer.

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You're gifted at rationalizing your behaviour, anyway. I didn't judge your conduct. I described it. I used your words, along with ideas I've learned the hard way. It's up to you whether they fit you, or not.

The next time you do one of your ibuprofen overdoses, wait 12 hours, and go have a liver enzyme panel done. While you're there, order an occult stool blood test. It might save your life.

When you run out of these meds, what are you going to do next? You'll have to come up with a new scheme to satisfy whatever it is that is driving you now.

It's disingenuous to abuse your medication as you have done, and then argue that you had little choice. It's patently absurd to "use wrenches as hammers" when hammers are available to you. But those are tricks of the mind.

The thing is, you are arguing yourself down a narrow path. The further down the path you go, the harder it will be to honestly discuss this with your prescribing physicians. I'm trying to help you to not crash. Or to crash more gently, as I see a crash in the offing.

You can dismiss drugs like Seroquel out of hand, but at some point you'll have a reckoning. Have you considered the idea that the way you are using these meds is directly causing the disturbance in thinking that troubles you? When you disturb the brain's balance with drugs, and then cease using the drug, there will be a rebound effect that can take you to a worse place than where you started. The answer isn't more drugs, it's stable drug intake.

I self-medicated for twenty years. The inherent flaw in self-medication is that you can't be objective. You don't even know which details are the important ones. When the medication itself disturbs cognitive processes, the subjective experience becomes even more distorted. What seem to be adaptive choices may well be seriously maladaptive. An interested but emotionally detached caregiver (e.g. physician or psychiatrist) can be a very useful adjunct to self-care.

Whatever you are doing now, it doesn't seem to be working in your advantage. I base that summary statement on your own descriptions. I'm feeding back to you your own thoughts. I hope you reconsider.

Lar