Thank you, CANDC

It's very interesting. I've had a strange onset of symptoms after watching this movie. I have a strange feeling of dread and sickness in my stomach now. It feels as though all of my PTSD symptoms are coming back and it really bugs me because as a child, I loved this movie. It was one of my all-time favorites and I feel like I should have pleasant memories of this movie, not bad ones.

These movies were my escape as a child. I used to act out the scenes and I knew every word the characters were saying...

Now, when I watch this movie, it just makes me feel weird, jumpy, and triggered.

I absolutely hate this... I want to remember my childhood as something great, innocent and exciting and fun. Not look at things from my childhood and feel scared and unsafe.

I have noticed my PTSD symptoms coming back with a vengeance, I just got discharged from the hospital about three days ago and while I was in the hospital, I was sleeping on the floor and babbling about hands on my body. Now that I am home, I have been sleeping in another room instead of my own, yet I am still experiencing flashbacks and body memories. I can't sleep on the couch forever... But I am too afraid to go sleep in my room now.

I did, however, try moving the bed and rearranging my room earlier today, so hopefully that helps, but I'm still concerned I'll have nightmares again...