In particular i am trying to figure out why my younger brother acts the way he does. I am a year older my brother and for as long as I can remember whenever me and him are around my dad my brother will act gay around me. I am not joking, he knows it upsets me yet he will do the WEIRDEST stuff. For example he will literally grab my *** and giggle like he is gay and just do really weird stuff. He basically tries to antagonize me but i don't understand why. My dad is a huge narcissist who treats me and my brother like inferior beings whenever we are around him btw. When me and my brother aren't around my dad though my brother will stop acting gay and basically act exactly like my dad. I am 20 and my brother is 19 and this has been going on since i was 5 years old. Anyways fyi, my brother isn't gay. I believe he acts like that to make me upset and he will fake laugh at me and ask if i'm mad in a sarcastic way while he is acting gay. The sad part is i've always been a nice person and i feel like if i wasn't and i just punched him in the face he would never do this again, but idk. Anyways, i don't understand the psychology going on in my "family" but i'd like to figure it out. Also, my dad thinks i am like him even though i don't see any similarity. I tried to fight the way my family is and change it because i freaking hate it and i am sick of them but i've pretty much given up because it is like talking to cavemen. I am a deep thinker but am extremely depressed due to my upbringing and how much it has messed me and my life up. I've always wanted to have a good family and have tried everything to reason with them but they are a bunch of idiots who can't stop their weird destructive cycle. Honestly my dad and brother feel like bullies to me because they are always trying to make me feel bad. I think they are just pathetic weirdos so they bully me differently than a normal person might bully someone even though their intentions are the same. I honestly feel like a male version of Meg from family guy, just constantly picked on by a bunch of weirdos who i have to call my family. It disgusts me that i have to call them my family. Anyways sorry if this is all hard to understand and all over the place, i am just too depressed to put much effort into anything these days.