So, after watching a certain animated film about Emotions, I got a very weird dream.
A re-enactment of said film, applied to past events of my life (PAS, But mostly excessive, persistent bullying) except it was a little different.
However, the most disturbing part is about a fictional character (Percy Jackson, who I was fascinated with at age 12, including thinking that I belonged in that universe as means to escape reality. I add that I do not longer do that. )
However, the most disturbing part and the one I am seeking interpretation for is when Jackson gives his life for me to be able to feel Joy again (YES, I dreamt about Inside Out. Feel free to laugh)
Especially since at that time of the dream I was finishing the last book of the series.
After that, said books became a trigger for self-diagnosed moderate CPTSD.
I nean finishing the books. Not ending the dream.
Any thoughts?
Please. I need this.
Pd: At the time of his death, It was January. The dream happened on Friends Day (ironically). However between both things I changed a lot. Primarily the acknowledgment of my issues (The mentioned, and BoPD and mania)