I am a 34 year old female with rapid cycling bipolar I, ADHD and PTSD. The last year has been a nightmare. I had a suicide attempt (overdose) and 5 inpatient and 2 outpatient hospitalizations. I was misdiagnosed with major depression until my 3rd hospitalization. I am prescribed 60mg of Cymbalta, 15mg of Zyprexa, 1500mg of lithium, 10mg of Ritalin, and 300mg of lyrica (for fibro) and have done 40 sessions of TMS.

The suicidal thoughts and self-harm urges have been persistent. I lost my job and my boyfriend of 12 years and had to move back home with my verbally abusive family. I am looking for support and to share experiences with people who understand that mental illness is not a choice.