(((IzzyMarie)))

I'm really sorry that you've been through this

Babysteps? Maybe? Indicating that there is something that you would like to discuss with your t but not necessarily disclosing all the details and letting your t know that you're not quite ready for that just yet.

Maybe even if you wrote it on a note / a short letter to your t and give it to her when you leave your next appointment, expressing that there have been some issues of abuse in the past, you really would like to work on these with her, but you're not there just yet to go into all details? But that you may wish to broach a part of this aspect at the next appointment. Even if it's perhaps exactly what you posted here - the past is affecting your future ability in forming these relationships and this is what you want help with.