I'm sorry to hear that you've relapsed

There seem to be a number of factors at play here.

I sometimes go through some of my posts and reflect where I was at the time of a particular post and evaluate where I am in order to determine whether or not I have made progress.

I know that you have listed a number of new obsessions that you have developed and I really hope that with the right type of professional support you may be able to begin to navigate your way through these.