So glad to hear that things are going better for you. I stopped seeing my ex-T around the time you quit your T. Mine was also a bit damaging. I've talked to my new T a bit about it, she has been careful not to criticise my ex-T, but made one particular comment the first time I talked about it that really stayed with me and reassured me. I find with my new T some of the similar emotions come up in my therapy, but it all feels completely different, I think because my new T just gets me in a way the other one didn't , and gets what I need in therapy. Also the emotions don't feel so intense, they are more manageable and I don't feel the anxiety around the relationship that I did with ex-t. It's been helpful for me to have it confirmed that it wasn't me who was the problem in my last therapy, it really was my ex-T. I too was a bit hesitant to start again - I questioned whether it was going to be helpful to open up my emotions again. If you do go ahead, I wish you well.