30 miles........on a busier than hell narrow highway.....trucks, trucks, trucks..................whine.

i had hoarded two pain pills and i took them with two xanax and went to bed. a friend had fixed my bed, put plywood under mattress.....i have to have a surface like the floor, but padded. and i slept almost all night. boy, that's a relief. being knocked out and lying still is the key. i didn't change positions til i woke up during the night for bathroom break.

my chest and my lymph node is really sore, but not burning like yesterday. i'm slumped today. if i straighten, it will start. i had to lift my grandson too many times yesterday. my daughter had major surgery and is down in bed. he's 18 months and a bruiser.

i don't know how much more of this i can take. seriously. i hate to say that i'm at the end of my rope, cause i try to not let it affect me that much, but my nerves are shot from this..........

thanks for the love.

i'm on call.