i had a genetic test done. the only thing i remember was it said i had a VAL/VAL comt. dont ask me what that means, lol. it said invega would work for me and it does, so thats cool. oh, also it said something about how i don't have enough serotonin receptors.

im sorry you don't respond to meds. i can't imagine that. it took me a long time to find the right ones. its such a painful process and i felt like a guinea pig. i dont know if ur in therapy or not, but it has helped me probly more than anything. i would give it a shot if you can. from what i have read of some of your other posts it seems like you have had trauma in your past. this is the case for me. i have complex PTSD from it. my T and i are fairly certain that my psychosis comes from that. thru working with my T on coping skills and processing trauma (we still work on that bc i am kinda avoidant about it since i am prone to breakdowns and dissociation) i have become so much more stable and functioning. i used to go into the hospital every 3 months during psychotic/suicidal crises. i used to hoard my meds and flush them down the toilet and lie to T and tell him i was fine (which he always knew i wasnt). i couldnt hold a job for more than 2-3 months and completely stopped working altogether. i tried school so many times but always dropped out. these days i take my meds every day. i dont lie anymore about my symptoms. i am rarely suicidal. i get mild psychotic symptoms but nothing like it was before. ive held a job for 1.5 years and was even offered a promotion, and ive been succesfully going to school for a while now. i have faith that most everyone can recover. sorry to turn this into my life story saga but i just want to say that therapy has helped me the most with all of these things. not saying the meds dont do anything, they most certainly do.

i hope you look into therapy