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Originally Posted by finding_my_way
i have had dreams lately where i am someone else. it is very strange to me. i don't know how people generally dream..but for me, i haven't had really a particular set of dreams/themes except themes with bad dreams. but i have noticed dreams though where i change genders and ages. sometimes, i also am watching 'myself' as these other people from a distance or even switch between watching from the outside to being in the body. i have never experienced dissociation like that where i see myself from outside/far away.....but dreams are interesting things.
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I can only recall one time when I saw myself from the outside. I was doing something I said I wouldn't do. I remember part of me not wanting to do it but that part that did, did it. In that moment I could see myself doing what I didn't want to be doing. It was a flash and suddenly I realized I was watching myself. I don't remember anything after that realization. In fact when I try to remember all I see is bright white. At the time I didn't know I was DID. In fact I waited a month before I mentioned it to a friend. By the time I mentioned it I thought I was losing my mind. When my friend said I dissociated I didn't know what she was talking about. She said it softly and almost in a question. After we hung up I googled it and found myself in the definition. All the times I had tried to figure out what was going on with me and suddenly it was there. One word. I have never thanked my friend because I have never told her. I need her to see me as she has always seen me.