Backstory: I was IP for a while. I was on Trintellix (Brintellix) for 7+ months and ADs of all sorts for 3 years. I think on the 17th they took me off the Trintellix and didn't give me anything after that (on the basis that none of the meds have helped at all). So here I am, out of hospital, no meds and a referral to a pdoc. Probably won't hear from his office for at least another week. Who knows how far into the future I will actually see him.

To the point: I've been getting a lot of "brain zaps". Headaches. Tired all the freaking time. I can't tell if it's a mixture of not getting enough sleep or just simply tired. I'm typically low-energy but this is a new level. But I've also been feeling more paranoid than I have in a very long time. I can't tell what's what, can't tell what to believe, all these theories keep bombarding my mind. That seems to come and go a bit. Sometimes it's worse than others. When I see movements in my peripherals when I'm not expecting it it freaks me out. I don't know what to think of that. But I'm also afraid of the meds now and the health workers that they're in on a plot against me. I won't go into the details of that here as it's not relevant. Some part of me says it's just me being paranoid but 80% of me says it's real.

I have no idea what to do. Even just writing this has completely sapped me from my energy.