I've also done and said some things i would never do before lately because i just feel like i have the right to now which is weird because i've always felt like i was in a prison within my mind but now it feels like i'm escaping. I'm so excited because this is so awesome, so many things aren't as scary to me anymore now and just the fact that i broke down a wall in my mental prison has given me so much hope for myself. I literally got chills reading you post thunder bow because it is without a doubt spot on. Thanks so much for your reply!