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Old Jul 28, 2015, 12:48 AM
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Originally Posted by healingme4me View Post
How much longer are you living under the same roof?

Your brothers behavior might be in receiving favor with your father. Hard to know.

Maybe, but to me it feels more like he is just trying to piss me off and be in control of whatever it is he wants to control in his sick head. It's hard to describe, but being a heterosexual male it is very upsetting to be a part of his weird little act where he treats me gay by him touching me and doing his little act. I can only compare it to a male monkey raping another male to show dominance. Obviously if he ever tried that **** with me i would beat the pulp out of him but that's also the thing, he knows i'm not really "allowed" to do anything when he "harmlessly" acts gay around me and touches me. That is why it is so upsetting when he asks me "are you mad?" because he knows i am and it is like he is rubbing it in that i'm not allowed to do anything about it. My dad doesn't even care about the way my brother treats me and when i stand up for myself i'm the one that gets in trouble. Basically i'm picked on and no one gives a ****, and the worst part is i never did anything to deserve it. Throughout my life whenever my brother or father has needed me i have always been there for them and yet they repay me by treating me like crap. It is really hard not to turn into a cold hearted person when i have to live with trash 24/7. I seriously wish they were dead tbh, but i hate feeling this way because i don't like being a bitter and angry person.

Last edited by philopsychology; Jul 28, 2015 at 01:03 AM.
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