I recently managed to cope against thinking about her. It's been 2 years since the utter silence never left, but I am being heavily distracted by games, deep thoughts and work so more or less I am quite stable.

I tried to resist thoughts of her that may trigger me into a depressive episode. It's just a thing I have to accept, no matter the positive significance she influenced in my life, but holding on to this bag of burden was a never ending emotional distress for me.

I'm really overjoyed reading on your life experiences as they share a lot of similarity, and some differences, but ultimately I'm touched you brought your feelings across that I have trouble expressing it in words myself. It's a crazy kind of life experience to share and learn.

Thank you so muuuch!