I'm very sorry, it's hard to lose someone that is so important to you. Take your time to grieve, you're allowed to have these feelings. When I said goodbye to my T earlier this year, I too experienced that nobody gets what you're going through. Not many people know what it's like to be attached to a therapist and to lose them.

I'm sorry too that your husband doesn't support you. Do you have a friend that you can talk too? Even thought they might not know what it's like to lose a therapist, they might know what it's like to say goodbye to someone.

It's very sweet that your T gave you a hug and said he loved you back.