Sorry to read about your situation. I actually came to this site to seek some answers myself and after reading your post I might be able to offer some support. If you are in your final year of high school could you consider pausing some subjects, focusing on the ones you can cope with and then pick up the other subjects next year at a different school or college to get the points you need? I also wondered if you had a special interest subject that you find enjoyable and could think about as a career. If so, that might help power you into making some positive decisions. It's not easy being young and competing with peers, a social life and the pressure from parents - so yes, you are coping with a lot and I congratulate you for the courage to put yourself on this forum. Parents I know worry non-stop about their children and hope they can fulfill their potential as young adults, but it's not easy feeling their stress and your own. Perhaps your mother had no better way of coping with your absence from school last year? Maybe that is her limitation and you experienced this first-hand. Either way, sometimes it is helpful to put yourself in their shoes and remember that they are coping the best way they can - as are you Know that you will get through this and you are full of potential that you don't yet have awareness of. Give yourself a chance to find some relaxation in each day - exercise, listen to music and dance ... whatever it is for you that is healthy. I find that keeping a study plan on my wall is really helpful and I rarely feel out of control because I know when assignments are due and what I need to do. In this process we build resilience and patience and it makes us better and more receptive to our own needs and others. Take care