Ifshadow. It does seem to be a never ending cycle at times with Depression. There are many Support Groups and events in the community that may help you to feel less lonely, isolated and depressed. Volunteering is a good way to help relieve some depression symptoms as well. Volunteermatch is always needind good people to volunteer to help others, animals and so forth. Walking, ecercise and attending classes part time may help as well to keep your time occupied so you have less time to think about the depression. I am sorry for the struggle you are having at thie time and the losses you ahve had in the past, but I hope you can make the Best and Most out of the future in your life when you are feeling better. Take care of yourself. Soidhonia