I was first diagnosed with depression when I was 33 and wasn't diagnosed with bipolar until I was 49. And I really didn't handle the bipolar well at all prior to diagnosis. I was just one wild and crazy girl when I was manic and thankful that i wasn't depressed. However, after being diagnosed and realizing the havoc it had had on my life, it really helped when they were able to get me on the proper meds.

I still struggle with the depression quite often but at least I'm not destroying my life.

I have racing thoughts when I'm anxious and those suck. I hope they can find something to help alleviate those for you.

There is hope so don't give up. It is possible for you to feel good again.