Hi IDM,
Well you can talk to us

But it sounds like maybe the safety plan might need some revision??
As in
either talk to your wife
or talk to ............ being first on the list??
And in there........talk to your T, your pdoc, an out of hours number if your T or pdoc have one, a helpline..........
or us??

And maybe the things
down your list
after talking to someone, if you can't do that for any reason, could be strengthened a bit?? As in, finding more
or more effective things??
Because sometimes it can be hard to talk anyway can't it??
And your niece's wedding.........I
would say that your focus on her is
so thoughtful, but how you're feeling matters
just as much (actually
more!!) so
if you need extra help in the lead up,
if you can't make it for any reason...........well now is a
perfect time to put your well-being
first!!
Alison