Thank you for the replies and the support. In response to Fizzyo, I don't have anyone like you do. I have nieces and a nephew but I'm not close to them nor do I care to be (I really, really get irritated by kids). It's hard for me to take the feelings of others into consideration because I'm the one who has to live my life, not someone else. And the reality is, most of us experience loss due to death at least once in our own lives and we move on. Our loved ones will, too. And I'm not saying I have plans to commit suicide. We currently don't have right to die laws in this country for the mentally suffering and the odds of me succeeding are not in my favor (having to deal with the physical consequences of a botched suicide and having to face my family in the aftermath don't sound pleasant). So the best of all bad options at this point is just to carry on living a life I don't want. My husband (who feels the same as I do in terms of the finality of death but does not suffer from depression and generally enjoys life) says, "If none of this matters, then why take it too seriously? Just sit back and enjoy the ride." But that sounds over-simplified because if just sitting back and enjoying life were an option, I wouldn't be here on this forum. I wouldn't be seeing a pdoc and I wouldn't be on happy pills. It amazes me how those who don't have depression can just casually dismiss serious dilemmas with frivolous comments.

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