I completely understand you SPG. My own experience is that takes a lot of practice to live my life in the present. It does not mean that I don't care about my past, or that I don't have goals for the future. What is mean is to be present at the moment, at the hour, focus in the present when all the racing thought come alone for example means for me to re direct my thoughts to only focus in one thing and only that one thing. Even if the thing I choose to focus is a paint in my wall. Till I come back to a place in my mind when being present is better. It is not easy to explain, but read about it girl, watch again the YouTube videos, talk about it here with us. Complain about it, I care about you no matter what, I am your online friend but that is not less caring than Real Life. This is very real too.

It is not easy, nothing is easy most of the time, but we can do it!

Big hugs