I am so sorry you have gone through all of this pain. I also can relate to my friends not wanting to contact me, or do
things. It really hurts, and I haven't asked any of them if
they still want my friendship. I am still at a point where I
feel okay one day,then the next day I am so depressed,that
i can't function. LIke getting out of bed,taking a shower.

So in way, I don't want to disappoint anyone by trying to make plans and then not show up. I can't believe no one
showed up to your X-mas party. That is terrible. I hope you
are able to go out and meet new friends, who appreciate
you and love you for who you are.

Please take care of yourself. Sending you a BIg HUG!