Thank you for your reply. I know that it can be hard for others to talk about their gender identity. I started dealing with gender dysphoria as a teenager and also dealt with sexual abuse for a long time. I can't tell if I'm escaping the abuse because I hated being a boy or if I hated being the boy who was abused. It's not as bad now, but I still am ashamed of my body. I feel a bit better about being around people since my transition. I'm not ashamed to be who I am. I find the fact that I can view life from both sides of the coin enlightening. So I guess I should just leave well enough alone.