I have the simultaneous type mixed episodes so they are different than what you are describing. My mind will be racing out of control and I'll be hysterically crying, totally overwhelmed and need to kill myself NOW. As for the no emotion or empathy thing, that is how I feel when I am depressed.

I hope you get into a pdoc soon. You may also want to try going to your PCP for trazadone or something else to get you to sleep-I think that is urgent.