I've been hospitalized 3 times in the last month for having psychotic symptoms. The first stay I was very manic. The second stay I was having a mixed episode. The third stay I don't know what the hell I was but I was delusional and paranoid. I just got discharged from the hospital today. During this last stay I don't remember really feeling manic or very depressed...I might have been mildly depressed, I'm not sure. It's all kinda fuzzy. But my discharge papers say I'm diagnosed with schizoaffective bipolar. There really isn't a whole lot of information about schizoaffective on the internet that I can find. But I did read that it's schizoaffective if you have been psychotic outside of feeling manic or depressed. But I don't know if that rings true for me. So I am skeptical about this being my true diagnosis.

Before this last hospital stay, I was really anxious and panicky because of my paranoia. But I would also feel anxious for no apparent reason. I really am just wondering if anyone here that has been accurately diagnosed with schizoaffective can better explain the disorder to me? Like how do you tell if it's psychosis without mood symptoms? Are there any helpful links anyone can provide that better describes the disorder? I don't think I have schizoaffective based on what little I know about the disorder. My therapist is out of town for two weeks or else I would just investigate it further with her.