Please don't talk about yourself that way, it breaks my heart. You need to practice replacing those words with even one kind thing to say about yourself. If you can't think of even one, try to remember what you used to like about yourself. Words have power. They reinforce our beliefs when they are repeated.

I understand how you feel about being lonely. Could you maybe go to a movie or the library-put yourself in a setting where there are people around? Or if you have regular hours that you are alone, volunteer somewhere? Please take care of yourself