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Originally Posted by StillIntending
I'm so sorry, Anichka. I've been in similar situations, even though I am Christian myself. Because I'm suicidal myself I'm probably not the best person to be trying to give you advice, so I won't try. I'll just say—you are a unique person, and you are loved, by your husband, at the very least. Try to hang on for him if not for yourself. You give a piece of yourself to everyone you're close to, and if you died, those pieces would all die too, leaving all of those people perpetually incomplete. I don't know if that thought helps you. It helps me. I know you don't believe in God, but I will pray for you.  |
This is beautifully stated. Even though we are an infinitesimal speck in the universe, there is still a small world that we are a part of. Our lives impact other people every day. We change them and that ripples out in their interactions with other people. What keeps me going is knowing the devastation it would cause to my loved ones if I wasn't here. That got me through my darkest time and now I'm starting to feel alive again and I relish the idea that after millions of years of evolution, here I am. What are the odds I would be here? It's a freaking miracle and I want to find some way to put my stamp on the world: I was here.